Category: About Me

In the End

Happy, relieved and grateful as I write this post; 534 days sober from the Opiate Addiction that almost killed me. As I’ve mentioned before, my inability to stop abusing those pills had already killed so much of me emotionally, psychologically, financially and even physically. At the time, I don’t think anyone predicted such a fast turnaround and then of course me asking for a … Read More In the End

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Rinse, Wash, Repeat.

It was a year ago – September 14th, 2018, that I came home to rejoin my Family after spending 11 Weeks away at In-Patient Treatment for an Addiction to Prescription Opiates. I could have lost everything; my life, my children and my freedom. I was running at such a dangerous pace as a User in Active Addiction that it was going to catch up … Read More Rinse, Wash, Repeat.

Let Her Go

If someone or something had told me 442 days ago I’d be in this place versus the Hell I was living through – I would have probably just taken another Pill. I would not have believed it and would have instead tried to convince you that these Pills helped me. That they made me “Better” and that I could function on just as high … Read More Let Her Go

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Welcome to the Family

What was it really like to be pregnant for 30 out of 52 months? That was 3 babies in 4.5 years – without any real help aside from their Dad and his Mother for a few hours a week. I really did not have much emotional support either. It’s funny how a few occasions in time can add up to a one-sided relationship for … Read More Welcome to the Family

29 Years

Today I am releasing 29 years of pain. For the first time in 29 years, I didn’t weep at his grave like a baby or fall to my knees in despair. When I was a child, my mother would constantly tell us that she didn’t believe my Dad was there so she didn’t like going to the Grave. We never took care of it … Read More 29 Years

Original Product

It’s not a secret I consume Cannabis on a regular basis to alleviate various mental health conditions. For 20 years, I have smoked Cannabis aside while being pregnant. What is interesting about that fact? I could quit Cannabis while pregnant but I could not stop taking Opiates. Every day for 4.5 months while pregnant, I either sought, used or craved Opiates. Whereas – the … Read More Original Product

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Learn to Fly

Baby Geese are super cute but also extremely vulnerable. If you have ever come across a Canadian Goose that’s nesting: watch out! The Mother and Father usually stick together quite close and they will come at you if you go near their nest. The parents of these goslings will share the burden of warmth, comfort and encouragement while awaiting their babies. If you actually … Read More Learn to Fly

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Trauma and Triggers

My life has been filled with unresolved traumas up until I began my Recovery from Opiate Addiction last year. I won’t go into too much detail about each event but it really began in 1991 at the age of 7. My Dad drove his Work Truck into a Concrete Guardrail on a Monday morning, 8 am – August 26. My sense of awareness around … Read More Trauma and Triggers

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Long Time Running

Tragically Hip – Long Time Running Thank you to everyone who reached out to me after my last/first post for “Angie Up In a Smoke.” The decision to come out publicly about my struggle with Addiction was made a long time ago. Executing this with complete transparency is what I hope to achieve so I can bring light to Recovery alternatives. As I mentioned … Read More Long Time Running