Category: Family Dynamics

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The Matriarch

When I first became a Mother and my 8lb child careened out of me like a bat out of hell – my entire body felt a shock like no other. What’s interesting about this part of the story is that I never experienced the same sensation with my other two daughters. It was as if a lightning bolt had gone through my whole body … Read More The Matriarch

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The Domino Effect

What if you had been taught your whole life that anyone outside your “Family” can’t be trusted? Most likely you would generally end up feeling doubtful of others and stay close to the ones who tell you these things. It would especially become an issue as you age, make friends and/or begin dating someone. The barriers to a meaningful, loving relationship include the level … Read More The Domino Effect

Settle Down

I must say Divorce; especially a drawn-out, Acrimonious one – sucks. I had to take a break from Blogging for a few weeks. I had a lot of real life stuff to deal with this month but, I’ve never been so focused, so energized as I have these last few weeks. This phase of Separation and Year 2 of Recovery; has been the ultimate … Read More Settle Down

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2 Days Notice

15 days ago, I realized if I didn’t change my situation drastically and leave the Matrimonial Home – I’d probably end up losing it all. The amount of Stress from the situation I’m in wasn’t going to get better. I didn’t Relapse, I didn’t do anything atypical of a stereotypical “Recovering Addict” – I didn’t run away. Yesterday, my 3 kids and I moved … Read More 2 Days Notice

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Rinse, Wash, Repeat.

It was a year ago – September 14th, 2018, that I came home to rejoin my Family after spending 11 Weeks away at In-Patient Treatment for an Addiction to Prescription Opiates. I could have lost everything; my life, my children and my freedom. I was running at such a dangerous pace as a User in Active Addiction that it was going to catch up … Read More Rinse, Wash, Repeat.

Let Her Go

If someone or something had told me 442 days ago I’d be in this place versus the Hell I was living through – I would have probably just taken another Pill. I would not have believed it and would have instead tried to convince you that these Pills helped me. That they made me “Better” and that I could function on just as high … Read More Let Her Go

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Divide and Conquer

Thank you to everyone for the encouraging feedback and support. I truly am writing about my experiences and sharing my knowledge for everyone’s benefit. It’s been 3 months since I began Blogging again and I love it. I’ve already had a couple Women (and a few Men!) reach out to me about their own stories about their Family Dynamics, Mental Health, Addiction, Trauma and … Read More Divide and Conquer

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Welcome to the Family

What was it really like to be pregnant for 30 out of 52 months? That was 3 babies in 4.5 years – without any real help aside from their Dad and his Mother for a few hours a week. I really did not have much emotional support either. It’s funny how a few occasions in time can add up to a one-sided relationship for … Read More Welcome to the Family

29 Years

Today I am releasing 29 years of pain. For the first time in 29 years, I didn’t weep at his grave like a baby or fall to my knees in despair. When I was a child, my mother would constantly tell us that she didn’t believe my Dad was there so she didn’t like going to the Grave. We never took care of it … Read More 29 Years